Meghan says royal palace had 'concerns' about how dark Archie's skin might be
The pressure of being under the microscope drove Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex, to the brink of suicide, Prince Harry’s wife said in explosive interview with Oprah Winfrey on Sunday.
She said she had been the victim of “character assassination” by her fellow family members and the pressure drove her to the the point of self-harm.
“Look, I was really ashamed to have to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry especially, but I knew that if I didn’t say that I would do it,” an emotional Meghan said. “I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.”
In the wide-ranging interview that aired on CBS, Meghan also revealed a troubling allegation about the royal family’s view on race.
In the months leading up to their son Archie’s birth, Meghan said she and Harry were told that royal insiders had expressed “concerns and conversations about how dark his skin might be when he’s born.”
Meghan says royal palace had 'concerns' about how dark Archie's skin might be
The revelation floored Winfrey who responded: “What?”
“There are several conversations,” Meghan aid, “potentially and what that would mean or look like?
Winfrey pressed Meghan to name names but she declined.
“I think that would be very damaging to them,” Meghan said.
In the wide-ranging interview that aired on CBS, Meghan also revealed that she was brought to tears before her wedding in an argument with sister-in-law Kate Middleton.
In the couple’s first lengthy interview since they left the royal family, Meghan and Harry opened up about their treatment by Buckingham Palace and their decision to start a new life in the United States.
Months after the wedding, tabloid headlines accused Meghan of bickering with Kate over flower girl dresses, which reportedly brought the Kate to tears. Meghan confirmed there was a disagreement about flower girl dresses but insisted she was the one crying.
“It made me cry and it really hurt my feelings,” Meghan said.
Kate apologized and even sent flowers, putting the issue to rest, according to Meghan, who declined to explain more about disagreement.
“It wasn’t a confrontation,” she said. “I don’t think it’s fair to her to get into the details of that. Because she apologized, I’ve forgiven her. What was hard to get over was being blamed, that not only I didn’t do but happened to me.”
Meghan she that she felt she lost her freedom when she married into the royal family and that it was “liberating” to be able to finally speak out.
Winfrey said no subject was off-limits in the interview, which has generated headlines around the world and was as hotly anticipated as the interview between Harry’s mother, Princess Diana, and BBC journalist Martin Bashir in 1995.
Royal interviews are historically rare, and the family is scrupulously guarded in what they reveal to the public, but Diana, who died in a car crash in Paris in 1997 as she was being pursued by paparazzi, shared intimate details about her marriage to Prince Charles.
Meghan says royal palace had 'concerns' about how dark Archie's skin might be
Meanwhile, the royal family tried to maintain a semblance of normality. Queen Elizabeth II delivered a televised message to mark Commonwealth Day hours before the interview with Winfrey.
Elizabeth’s husband, Prince Philip, 99, Harry’s grandfather, remains hospitalized after a heart procedure last week.
In  pushed back against media coverage. Meghan last month won a privacy lawsuit against a British media company, which published parts of a letter she wrote to her estranged father, Thomas Markle. However, the coverage intensified throughout the week as anticipation for the interview grew.
It has been less than three years since the couple married in a star-studded wedding at Windsor Castle, which Winfrey attended. Meghan was hailed at the time for modernizing the monarchy.
They announced in January 2020 that they were “stepping back” from their roles as senior members of the royal family, a decision they confirmed last month. Harry and Meghan announced on Valentine’s Day that they are expecting their second child.
Harry, meanwhile, is expected to return to the U.K. in July for the unveiling of a statue of Diana.